Invariably, when I mention to someone that I am planning on working with disadvantaged/at risk young people, nearly everyone comments on how little I might be paid; how uncontrollable/unmotivated/useless young people are these days, and that it will put me off having my own kids; . I am not discouraged by this, and let me tell you why.
The reality, of hurting, confused, abused and abandoned children and teenagers, is that they express their inner turmoil through foul language, violence, substance abuse, escapism and materialism. Helping them to recover and heal from the past and present, while introducing activities and desires that are edifying and long-term for the future, is...messy.
I will most likely be exposed to words, scenes and conflicts that will make me cringe;
I will feel intimidated and helpless;
I will go home from work with memories I would rather forget;
my heart will ache for the ones I can't help;
I will take too much on personally;
I will be tempted to think that because of my own failures and problems, I am not good enough to be an example to anyone;
I will wish that the policies and procedures and paperwork were not so complicated, so we could help more of them, quicker...
If God listed all the negatives of sending Jesus to earth to save us, and decided that it wasn't worth the effort, pain and losses, then you and I wouldn't be here, let alone have the opportunity to show others love and hope.
Yes I may be inexperienced, shy, lacking confidence and vertically challenged, but I am willing to give it a go, even though I know I will make mistakes, and might find out in the end that it's not where I'm meant to be.